Today, I thought I’d share with you a different type of post, not a beauty nor fashion post, but a more personal one.
This year has definitely been the best year of my life, but I still had some tough moments for sure. Being in a new city with new people and far from your family made me anxious and alone at times.
Honestly, I’ve never been that girl that NEEDED a boyfriend. I’m more into letting destiny taking its course.
All my girlfriends had boyfriends and I was one of the few single ones… This never really bothered me. I always felt like I didn’t have to settle with someone just in the sakes of having a boyfriend. Not my scene. But a few months before summer I sometimes felt a little left out… Is that strange? Don’t get me wrong, I’m super happy for my friends and their relationships, but I sometimes wished I had someone too.
I’m not the most affectionate person but so what? That’s just me. I’m not one to go head first when it comes to a boy. Specially this past year, I had my guard up like crazy. I was told that being in my first year of uni, I had some sort of target on my back by the older guys. Gross I know. And even if that wasn’t the case with most guys, that just stuck with me.
This past year I felt like some guys “fell for me” (or at least that’s what they would say) without even knowing me. Liking me without having reasons to… Without knowing the weird me. The girl that enjoys eating chips with ice-cream. The girl that cries watching Masterchef. The girl that prefers sleeping on the couch even when there’s a bed available. The girl that hates talking about herself and that feels uncomfortable every time she gets complemented. You can say I have trust issues…
Summer is almost over and I can say that being single during this time gave me so much clarity. I can honestly say I have the best friends I could ask for and the most supportive family. I can’t complain. So I’m definitely not going to complain about being single. Being single is great.
Life is too short to force something with someone that’s just not there and it’s way too short to wait around for the perfect guy to show up, cause he’ll appear at some point so I might as well enjoy my life until he shows up. I’m done wasting my time.
I’m starting this new school year fresh, without a care in the world. Ready to have fun with friends, meet different people and start my new classes.
What are your thoughts about this?
Ps: I'm a teeny bit nervous about releasing a more personal post...
Xoxo Jessy ♥